Thursday is still more hopeful then Friday, but once Friday has rolled around and no new news about the SDA I am feeling somewhat S. A. D. :-(!
We are still pretty wiped out and exhausted. Tuesday night DS said "Mama I have a belly ache" but he often says that when he is full. We try to teach NOT to eat till we feel this awful way. But he has a hard time to understand his feelings. I gave him some pepto, I have always thought this works like a charm!
So when it was time for bed, we enjoyed some books, and I was hanging out with him in our bed until he fell asleep and so did I nesting with my Little Lovey. Not really sure how long we slept DH was up working on computer. SUDDENLY I was awoken by him spewing vomit all over me, himself our bed ugh! I swear it must have been GALLONS and GALLONS! I have no idea where that volume of fluid came from! I was like a swimming pool broke!
And there I am screaming for J! We cleaned him off and put him in his bed...incredibly enough he went right back to sleep (Thank God!) like he dreamed it,,,leaving J & I to do the grueling work way into the wee hours!
We stripped off our bed, threw the sheets in the machine...there I am scrubbing our new (but of course) mattress with oxy-clean mixed into hot water (don't pass this product by folks) you cannot imagine how badly vomit dyed with pepto wants to stain your mattress.. this Oxy stuff got out every last drop! So our bed was soaking wet!
There I was scrubbing the mattress and all the while, all I could think of was how growing up I was the gaggy kid in school... when someone vomited... IF I saw it, heard it or smelled it, I vomited too! I had an AHA Moment! When did I become so strong? When did I get past my throwup phobia?
BUT...remember in my last post I said I am stronger than I know??? DS was a failure to thrive baby, oh he was sooo sick (he is my true miracle child! Thank you God!) he was allergic to everything- puked up every meal I gave him. Poor thing, as if that was not enough he also he had one of the worst cases of reflux his gastro in Nemours children's had ever seen! It lasted for YEARS!
It's funny what you never think you can endure... and then you find out you can ~smile~ I am guessing I CAN live through this horrific wait (2 years in October) if in the end I come home from Ukraine with my child! I just KNOW he is there!
J had to bring our quilt to work with him to do on his lunch hour, because it won't fit in our machine and I could not go there with DS! Off to work with no sleep with the quilt in the car.
DS up for the day with Mama very sleep deprived!
It seems these sleep deprived nights are more common than sleep these days. I wonder how many other adopting parents out there stay up all night just to greet the day, because they await news. I wonder how I will ever sleep in Ukraine, when it seems I have turned off that ability (not the need). I do not think I wiill sleep until I arrive home!
Yes yes I am not even there yet, let us take things one day at a time. J & I absolutely feel this weird time warp every day, like we are moving through our day, but our lives are on hold. It is just awful! I hope & pray it will end soon!
T & J
We are still pretty wiped out and exhausted. Tuesday night DS said "Mama I have a belly ache" but he often says that when he is full. We try to teach NOT to eat till we feel this awful way. But he has a hard time to understand his feelings. I gave him some pepto, I have always thought this works like a charm!
So when it was time for bed, we enjoyed some books, and I was hanging out with him in our bed until he fell asleep and so did I nesting with my Little Lovey. Not really sure how long we slept DH was up working on computer. SUDDENLY I was awoken by him spewing vomit all over me, himself our bed ugh! I swear it must have been GALLONS and GALLONS! I have no idea where that volume of fluid came from! I was like a swimming pool broke!
And there I am screaming for J! We cleaned him off and put him in his bed...incredibly enough he went right back to sleep (Thank God!) like he dreamed it,,,leaving J & I to do the grueling work way into the wee hours!
We stripped off our bed, threw the sheets in the machine...there I am scrubbing our new (but of course) mattress with oxy-clean mixed into hot water (don't pass this product by folks) you cannot imagine how badly vomit dyed with pepto wants to stain your mattress.. this Oxy stuff got out every last drop! So our bed was soaking wet!
There I was scrubbing the mattress and all the while, all I could think of was how growing up I was the gaggy kid in school... when someone vomited... IF I saw it, heard it or smelled it, I vomited too! I had an AHA Moment! When did I become so strong? When did I get past my throwup phobia?
BUT...remember in my last post I said I am stronger than I know??? DS was a failure to thrive baby, oh he was sooo sick (he is my true miracle child! Thank you God!) he was allergic to everything- puked up every meal I gave him. Poor thing, as if that was not enough he also he had one of the worst cases of reflux his gastro in Nemours children's had ever seen! It lasted for YEARS!
It's funny what you never think you can endure... and then you find out you can ~smile~ I am guessing I CAN live through this horrific wait (2 years in October) if in the end I come home from Ukraine with my child! I just KNOW he is there!
J had to bring our quilt to work with him to do on his lunch hour, because it won't fit in our machine and I could not go there with DS! Off to work with no sleep with the quilt in the car.
DS up for the day with Mama very sleep deprived!
It seems these sleep deprived nights are more common than sleep these days. I wonder how many other adopting parents out there stay up all night just to greet the day, because they await news. I wonder how I will ever sleep in Ukraine, when it seems I have turned off that ability (not the need). I do not think I wiill sleep until I arrive home!
Yes yes I am not even there yet, let us take things one day at a time. J & I absolutely feel this weird time warp every day, like we are moving through our day, but our lives are on hold. It is just awful! I hope & pray it will end soon!
T & J
posted by stilllooking @ 12:01 PM
3 Comments:
At August 18, 2006 at 7:02 AM,
stilllooking said…
You got that right sister...and now we want more of the same right? Well maybe not exactly the same :-) !
T & J
At August 18, 2006 at 8:07 AM,
Living Life with Sophia said…
Hey Stilloking
What a story!! You brought back many many memories...I was woken up by the sound of broken water pipes(so we thought) ran in to check on my son and guess what he is leaning over the bed onto the floor throwing up!! I ran and slip slided right into the night stand I was sooo upset went to the other side of the bed to help him (he cannot throw up he chokes) and guess what yes !!! more of that stuff!!! What a night! You had your DH help mine has the puke phobia he is now outside throwing up on the side of the house ! What a mess!!!!!!!!! needless to say I threw out bed sheets that day It was bad! Mommy hood isn't it great!
I know what you mean about life in limbo isn't it awful.
Bye for now
Patricia
At August 18, 2006 at 8:05 PM,
stilllooking said…
OMG! I know Patricia, Isn't it awaful? The broken pipes, descrption, I know THAT sound so well.. that flooding & splashing, that you would never believe is coming out of your child...it is so scarey and out of control. Out of our hands is a scarey thing. Let's not forget though rather than seeing the Adoptions asjust out of our control, let us not lose sight of who is in control! ;-)!
It helps me when I start to think of this new administration in control. It's a larger plan than theirs as well.
Take care!
T & J
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